Dead.

if you are reading this,
I am dead.
i have died and i will not rise again.
bury me beneath the sheets of everything i ever believed in.

i have nothing.
i have nothing.

i have nothing to live for.
had nothing to live for.
and today i let myself die.

my body is cold.
i am cold.
my blood has ceased to run.
my mind has stopped turning.
my heart has stopped beating.
and i am cold.

there is no peace in my death.
there is no white light.
there is only darkness.
black.
i was abandoned in life,
and now i am abandoned in death.

i told you i would explain to you the word "ever".
As james and Lilly sat in the clearing,
Lilly whispered "Im afraid",
James replied "I know you are and so am i. but the only thing that matters, the only thing you need to know for sure is that im not leaving"
She smiles "Ever?"
"Yes. Ever."
Lilly rests her head on James's shoulder "I don't want to be alone anymore, James"
James rests his head on hers, "You won't be"
"I cried all day" Lilly says.
And James gently lifts Lilly's head, looks her in the eyes and whispers "Don't cry again. Just think of the word ever".........................

Even in death, i will think of you forever,
your memory will never leave me.
even in death.
yours is the last face ill see before the black takes over.
the very last sound i hear will be your voice,



the very last breath i take will be your scent.