lake effect kid,

its simply magic how one small thing can put your life in perspective

i just got news that Fall Out Boy is releasing a new record Nov. 4
such a small thing, but im almost teary with happiness
because now i know everything is right.

it gives me a hope that i cant explain.
its been so long since ive had everything i wanted
the last time i felt this happy was 4 years ago
When i heard Fall Out Boy for the first time.
it was a time in my life that i had everything,
a family, lots of friends, adventure, and a bright outlook on everything

alot has happened in the past 4 years to change all that
while there have been times that ill remember forever,
most of it has been covered in a sort of darkness
one big blur, grey.

for the past 5 months or so ive been recovering from it.
things had finally gotten settled enough to start trying to live again.

and now today i finally realize i am back to that place
that place of pure happiness and excitement that i thought was long gone.
i have everything i ever wanted again, and so much more

i may not have the family i used to have, but what i have is just enough.
i love where i live, i get to see my mom everyday, my walls are covered with posters, i have a cat puring next to me.

I may not have the friends i used to have, but i have better ones
ones that share my dreams with me, ones that i can trust with everything, we have memories that will last life times, and a future that has so much more adventure ahead.

and something i have now that i never had before, someone to love.
someone to call mine, who listens and understands me in a way i didnt think possible, a truly unique individual that i feel so very honored to have with me


This is how its supposed to be.